of blessings

i'm already halfway through my training for becoming a nurse in world citi medical center. yes, i am blessed for there are those who have been waiting for quite sometime already to be accepted in any training program (pre-employment) of any hospital here in the metro. there are a lot of things i've already learned and i am pretty much looking forward to a truck load of how-to-do's more to learn. i cannot believe i'm saying this but i am proud to say that i love being a nurse. and i am graced by Him by being given the opportunity to be one, at such an early stage.

i've gone back to the gym. by some unknown force, i've had the strength to continue and frequent the gym in such a manner that i end up having body ache time and again. but i definitely can see the difference now. and mind you, i'm going again later in the morning. i hope for change.

the new season of american shows are here. yey!

of tribulations

by now most of you know or must have heard that i have just recuperated from an accident i had last april 3rd. my family still haven't recovered from the financial blow that i think we're submerged in debt for life. now, my family is to face another adversity and try to jump another hurdle. and it's going to be a big one.

yeah i know the blessings far outweigh the tribulations, and i am thankful for it. but the problem to come might be so grave that it sets our family back more than where we are now. i don't think we can take any more fatal blows.

either way, thanks for reading this guys. follow me in twitter, tumblr, or add me up in facebook.

Labels: facebook, introspect, tumblr, twitter, update

it's the bittersweet bliss of missing a few people (really really great friends), and anticipating the joy of new friends to arrive. i'm not... well you know. but i'm getting there.

I face the pain
Without a tear
For such a sting
I strongly fear

I show courage
Despite my every woe
For I am weak
But dare not show

Construed am I
With binds that hold
For seen as one
Whose heart is cold

But nay oh see
It’s only such
For I am afraid
To show too much

For if I do
Break down my walls
Tears would pour
Like waterfalls

And I can’t bear
If you should change
And see me then
weak and deranged

So when I fall
To harder times
Don’t expect
That I should cry

But know it then
For truth it is
The pain I feel
Is a traitor’s kiss

Labels: pain, poems, sadness

this is me for 2009.

i quit my HIGH paying call center job on february to get the opportunity to PAY a hospital for me to train and work there. i miss my friends there. i miss the financial freedom from my mom (and the fact that i'm able to help around the house). but i don't miss the hours and the dissatisfaction of working with no professional growth (since i'm a nurse).

my feb batch training in a hospital. i got through the first month of lecture and 2 days of hospital rotation. i made new friends, enjoyed experiencing being a nurse for the first time... then the accident.

i was sent to two ERs, got admitted twice and underwent surgery twice as well. my left leg is now officially not just made up of marrow but titanium too! i lost around half a year of my life to that misfortune. thank God for facebook! at the very least i got to give booster shots to my digital designing and mustered up the balls to post videos of myself on youtube and FB.

recuperating. i tried my chances with love for a couple of times. but alas, to no avail.

so for a couple of months i worked for an non-government organization. i got to express my principles in terms of how i view things in life, and i got to work and meet wonderful people. and i love the fact that they kept me well fed. (smirk smirk)

and now, i'm back to being a nurse. i'm continuing the training that was cut off and so far i'm having the time of my life.

as how it has always been, life is hard, but i'm doing the best that i can. i'm nothing if not patient, i've been taught well. i guess i've got to ride my completely erratic days of ups and downs. as most of my friends know, i'm a person of the extremes.

as the year draws to an end, i pray for fulfillment in anyway. i have no need for more than i deserve but i just wish to be happy, and with that i think i can get by. i'm sure anyone would.

here's to october, with hopes to a very happy november. (akin nalang kung bakit)

Labels: 2009, facebook, introspect, nursing, personal, random, update, youtube

ive always made people smile
forget their worries even for a while
i got them their wings
and flew them away
far far away

when they cry of pain
of love and how the hurt remain
i set my shoulder and let water
flow away
far far away

but when i try to write
my story
set my heart ready
why is there no one to cry about
no one to wish return
no one to hold on to
no one there

when bright and sunny yellow
turns blue and endless sorrow
i paint the world silly
far away from pain
far far away

but...

how can no one see
that there is so much more to me
i am more than comforting words, that shoulder and that face. i am
more than you know and
i am more than
even i can explain

- thoughts on how someone would feel after being rejected or after
being unseen for so long

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